Romeo & Juliet :(

As I was bored last night, I don't know what comes to my mind but I made this poem. And the only person whom I was thinking while I was making this was she.. haaayyy..

My soul searches for you, my heart screams no one but you

Your eyes stare back at me, as I listen to this old melody

As I rest, I feel the carress of loving you,

What can I do to prove that my love is true?

My love for you is so pure, no one can touch you I assure

For you are my JULIET of yesterday, but i'm still your ROMEO for today,

and will be for everyday

I can feel the sweat from your skin as it falls down to me,

I can fell your heart as it was feeling empty

You held my hands so tight, thinking it was my last night

As I dream of you, will you dream of me, too?

I can hear nothing but silence, and you can't see any evidence

As I look through the mirror, I can reminisce all, & my heart ask for more

My mind tremble as my heart fall

And it's not yet my turn, forever I am damned to rot & burn

Forever I will wait 'til you are mine..

October 11-16, 2009

Oh! It's been another week! But wait, it seems like I can't feel that there are classes this week. (Hays..) Many of our teachers were not around, and therefore, as usual, in most subjects, my classmates are having party! [arg.] And me? Hmmm.. If there's a seatwork, i'll finish it first and after it, ahm, I'll go to the gym & play table tennis. (Hehe..) I'm admitting, during class hours and when we have no teacher, I'm also having party on my own[table tennis].

Wooooh! I think, next week, we'll have a sermon with our adviser, Ma'am May, because aside from wasting our time to non-sense things, we also didn't even clean the classroom. Argh.

Youth Camp [PCI Indang, Cavite] - Part 3

Woooh! It was now the last day of the camp, the last day of the most exciting day of the camp!

the call time was 5:30 AM. Everyone prepared theirselves for we will all be attending a mass at 8AM.

After the mass, we went back to the venue & their, we ate our breakfast. After eating the breakfast, there, all the service teams prepared. The speaker for the talk 5 brought the participants to a place where they will be comfortable & started the talk. After the talk is a reflection, reflection which the participants will never forget, reflection about their parents. wooooh!! It was my favorite part. While the participants are catching every word that the speaker is saying,while they are starting to cry, we,too service teams started to cry also. Yes I cried once again that time even though it was my 4th time to hear the talk. Why? Maybe I'm just missing the times when I was the one sitting at the chair with closed eyes, reflecting, listening to the story of the speaker wherein our speaker that time told us that what if our parents die... etc etc.. I cried a lot that time when I was still a participants. And I even cried more when I was surprised that when I looked at my back, my parents were there crying also as they see me crying. Weeeeehh!!! It was so good!! I can't forget that experience. God is really good!

Hmmm.. Let's go back to the participants. Ahm, there, at first, I can see Neil. He's not even crying while hearing the reflection story. He really is not crying. But then, when the speaker told them to look back, his tears really fall!!! I can't believe it! He cried more than what I thought.

The same happened to the other participants. But so sad, the parents of Lorena & Loriza were not able to come for they were busy. But then, it's just ok.

Youth Camp [PCI Indang, Cavite] - Part 2

And this was my best experience, it's 11PM as I can remember, while the participants are listening to talk4[receiving God's gift], all the service teams gather in one room far from the session hall of the participants. We had our service worship! Woooh!! I felt so blessed while singing my praises to God! And also, I didn't expect that almost all service teams will do 'tongues[the language taught by God which Satan can't understand]. Woooh, at first, I was scared to them, then, I didn't expect that, while I am singing with closed eyes, ate Witty suddenly grabbed my hands and told tongues in front of me! Her eyes were enlarged & I was really scared. I can't understand what is she saying but then, I cried! I really cried allot! I do not know why, but after she told me tongues, I fell on the chair & suddenly cried. wooooohhh.. ----And oh, not just that, Nique also spoke tongues and it's getting faster and faster, when suddenly, we were shocked when we saw her fell down & faint. Woooh!! After that worship, I can really feel that God's power in that venue is supreme & very strong!

As what I had told, God's power in that venue was really strong, and so, Satan is making a way to break that power. After the talk4 & after the baptism of the participants, we all gathered to the session hall & had an energizer & should prepare for the E-Night. We then had the energizer for the participants. We played the game 'Watermelon. I can see that the participants were enjoying, when suddenly all of us were shocked when ate Chie [one of the service team] entered the room and shouted to kuya Norman[the one who is leading the game; service team; YFC Cavite Head], "HOY NORMAN! TIGILAN NIYO NA NGA YANG KABALIWAN NIYONG YAN! NARIRINIG NILA.... WAG NA KAYONG MAINGAY.. "

We are surprised on how ate Chie shouted to kuya Norman. At first, we thought that ate Chie is saying that the neighbors are already bothered because we are so noisy, but it was not. Ate Chie shouted again, "MGA PARTICIPANTS!! LUMABAS KAYO DITO SA SESSION HALL! PUMUNTA NA KAYO SA KWARTO NIYO! MATULOG NA KAYO!!! BILISAN NIYO!! SERVICE TEAMS, HALIKAYO DITO SA LOOB, BILISAN!!"

At that time, all service teams had a thought that it was not ate Chie who are talking with us & shouting in front of us. Kuya Norman talked to ate Chie, "WHO ARE YOU THERE INSIDE THE BODY OF CHIE?!!" and then ate Chie replied, "AKO SI GOD!! AKO SI GOD!! HINDI NIYO BA AKO NAKIKILALA?!! YAKAPIN NIYO AKO!! AKO SI GOD!!"

And then, ate Che, the sister of ate Chie suddenly entered the session hall, and shouted, "YAKAPIN NIYO SIYA DALI! SIYA SI GOD!! HINDI NIYO BA NAKIKITA??!!!" After what ate Che had shouted, ate Chie fell down. After what had happened, kuya Norman told us, "let's pray! Let's pray!". We started praying that time, we formed a circle & hold the hands together, and prayed Our Father In Heaven, & repeated it many times. Ate Che told us, "NARIRINIG KO NA ANG MENSAHE NIYO?? ANU BA!! TIGILAN NIYO NA YAN!! ANDITO LANG AKO SA HARAPAN NIYO!!" , after that, kuya Norman asked us to continue praying. Woooh!! I was shocked when, while we were praying, I heard ate Witty uttered tongues, it's getting faster & faster then suddenly, poof! It seems like she's not ate Witty anymore, she faced to ate Che and told her, "BAKIT MOKO INIIMPOSTOR??!!" waaaah!! grrrr! At that time, I am really getting nervous of what's happening. At first, I thought all was just a joke, but then, why will they be joking us all? ---As time goes on, ate Che & ate Witty are shouting & talking to each other using tongues so we can't understand what are they talking to, while us, we're just continuing to pray Our Father in Heaven. Because our prayer was loud, & the way ate Witty & ate Che are talking are loud, the participants can hear it because their quarters were just on the next room. They were also afraid that time and so, they also prayed. After an hour, we heard that the participants shouted in their room. So kuya Wesley, one of the service team, checked what happened. And there! He saw Izza, one of the participant, lying down. The participants told kuya Wesley that Izza suddenly fell down while they were praying, so kuya Wesley brought her rapidly to us. We never expected that a spirit will enter to three persons. Woooh!! they were really very strong! 5 persons in each of the three, are holding their bodies & preventing them to move, but still, they were really strong!

woooh!! We prayed & prayed until 4 o'clock in the morning! Waaaah!! That was 4 hours!

After that, woooh, God is good! All were under controlled. The spirit moved out of the body & there, all of us gone to sleep..

Youth Camp [PCI Indang, Cavite] - Part 1

Last October 9-11, we had attended a youth camp at PCI Indang, Cavite. Woooh! It was very fun and I think it will be one of my unforgettable moments in our YFC family.

At first, me, Stanford, Zyrex, Neil, Nadine, Tei Tei, Jirah will be meeting at the crossing of San Roque. Wooow. Me, Nadine & Tei Tei were altogether when we went to the crossing. We rode a jeep, a jeep full of passengers. There's only a little space where we three can seat. So, I decided to sat at the last seat near the driver, and in front of me sat Nadine, and Tei Tei sat on the seat near the door of the jeep. ----When we're now there in San Roque, Tei Tei went out, then, Nadine told me, "Emer ikaw muna ang maunang bumaba, ayokong madapa eh, marami kasing mga bag." And so, I had decided to go first, but to my surprise, I fell down and "napasalubsob" because of the bags blocking the way. Waaaah!! Hmmm.. I think that incident was just ok because it was understandable & can be explaine, ahm, it's because of the bags blocking.. But then, another incident happen! Waaaah!! When i'm about to stand, i lifted my right foot & tried to stand. But when I do so, I never expected that my shoe will fly! Waaah! It flew out of the jeep! Argh! Maybe the passengers are laughing at me already so, when we got down the jeep, I never tried to look back at the jeep anymore. grrrr..

Aside from that funny but embarrassing moment, the most enjoyable part was the youth camp! Weeeh! It really feels good. God is really great! We had arrived at the venue at about 8PM i think, but then, they were not yet starting, yeah! And so, we're just on time. ^^

That night was our first day in the camp, ahhmm, for me, I'm not yet enjoying that time. But the, on the second day, weeeeh!! I think that was really the start of the camp. The participants, together with their speaker[can't remember the name but shes from CvSU YFC Campus Based], started the Talk 3, while some of the service teams, started to mobilize & work,while others were left at the session hall to watch the participants while they are listening to the talk, and I'm one of them. Hmmmm. As we witness the participants listening to the talk, they started to cry because of the reflection, i think. Woooh! It was really good. People whom I thought will never cry cried that time, and Neil was one of those. [Argh, I miss the times when I was still a participant like them..] After the talk, the participants had their lunch, while the service teams suffered and just shared foods that will be left, if there are any. After lunch, service team had a service meeting & talked about the One-on-One session that will be conducted on the afternoon, while the participants had their time to take a bath & bonding time together with the other participants so they will know each and everyone. On the afternoon, I think we started 3PM - 5PM, we conducted the On-on-One session with the participants. It took us 2 hours because the participants were to many. And there, one by one, we are calling the participants & are talking to them just like we are 'tropa. This one-to-one session aims to know the feelings of the participants in any aspects of their lives, to know their emotions & expressions, etc. It aims to make the participant release all his bad feelings & emotions and so, the Holy Spirit can enter to them. While we are conducting the one-on-one session, the other participants were preparing their talents for the Entertainment Night to be conducted later at 12 in the midnight.

Bagyong Ondoy

Woooh! It has been a week after before I had posted my blog regarding Bagyong Ondoy.

Ahmm, I just want to share my experiences during the day when the typhoon attacked.

It was early in the morning when my mother asked me to buy pandesal on the bakery in Ibayo Estacion. As I was walking, I looked at the clouds and I predicted that it will rain. And there, I arrived at the bakery & bought pandesal. I am about to walk back home when the rain started to fall. I stayed & waited at the bakery for a few minutes thinking that the rain will stop right there & then. But it was not. I could not wait for more at the bakery because the rain is getting stronger, so I've decided to ride a tricycle. When we are nearly at our house, I was shocked to see that the water keeps on rising & rising until it reached the tricycle I am riding. And there, I was wet. Good thing the pandesal was covered with plastic & was not able to be wet the same as I.

As the rain grew stronger & stronger, weeeeh, I am watching the water as it was rising & rising. It was nearly, I think, 1 foot before it reaches our dirty kitchen & 2 foot before it reaches our house. And as I am watching the water rises, I am texting & asking my friends if they're still ok. And good thing they was. Among all people I knew, no accident happened to them & the water was not able to reach their houses.

Woooh. Cavite was not the eye of the typhoon unlike before when we experienced the wrath of Milenyo, but still, it brought us a calamity & still many people suffered. After the rain had stopped, I suddenly prayed to God & thanking Him for we are not one of those living in Marikina who suffered allot. I also asked Lord to guide & give hope to the people who were victims of the typhoon especially, as what I had told, Marikina.

Last Words

Here goes the story of a kid we thought we knew. He hid a hate inside and had a state of mind that put him in his grave. It began with his friends, they never noticed the despair in his eyes from the pressure. His life was etched in stone before he made a choice of his own.
And he's dedicated for everyday that made it on his own. In his father's eyes he's a pair of dice & he wont be number one.

So he tried to comply with everything they've ever asked and his life ;is stitched with one-way tickets to places he don't want to visit.
He says "I'm never gonna be perfect
Maybe I don't deserve his trust but I'm doing the best I can".
"I've never dealt with such pressure. Feels like my whole life's etched in stone
before I've made a choice of my own.

So save your breath cause you'll need it when you hang from a rope
Cause of death: Obvious from your suicide note
The last words that filled the page:
"If no one will listen then no one will miss me when I'm gone.."
Across town his dad falls asleep all alone. Never knowing he was never going to come home.
The last thoughts that filled his head, I'll tell him "I'm sorry", I'll say "I regret what I did"
"It's your life, I'll live my own life instead.."

His bedrooms filled with emptiness tonight as the silence cuts through like a knife knowing hes not there.... x'[